And the adventure continues…

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m honestly shocked that I have made it this far. It’s gone by so fast yet so slow. It’s hard not to reflect on this whole experience like it’s over even though I have a whole round left. It will be the longest round of the year too; 9 weeks, I believe. I think it will be a great opportunity to do a lot of the things I have been neglecting lately. I need to re-evaluate myself. I need to re-adjust my goals. I need to catch up on my reading and not get lost in technology to avoid being aware of reality. I need to focus on being healthy and and not be distracted by city life. I’m sure I will get bored to tears and miss everything about living in a big city but I think it will be good for me. That was the point of this whole year. I wanted to throw myself into something challenging to possibly be miserable but grow a whole lot. Lol. I can’t believe it’s almost over. I don’t know how I feel about going back to “real life”. I have extremely mixed feelings. On one hand, I can’t wait to leave! I want to be in charge of my own life. I want to be able to choose what I’m going to eat for dinner instead of have to eat something because everyone else is having it. I want to be able to go anywhere at any time whenever I feel like it….and drive myself there in my own car while listening to the songs I want to listen to on the radio. I won’t lie. I miss being able to sing really loud and blast the radio while driving. It’s so great pretending like no one can see you even though everyone around you is looking through your windows going “This chick thinks she’s f***ing Celine Dion”. Haha. I found out I will be doing quite a bit of camping towards the end of my project. The last 6 weeks of my stay in New Mexico will consist of minimal showering, sleeping in a tent, and having no connection with the outside world. I might love it. I might hate it. I’m guessing it’s going to be a little bit of both. But, like I said, at least I will have an opportunity to clear my head and focus on different things that you just can’t address when you are constantly distracted. I hope to love this project and I am sure I will. I really don’t think anything will ever compare to my last one though. I’d elaborate but I might cry so I won’t. Haha. Anyways, that is all for now. I probably won’t update this until I get back from New Mexico. Wish me luck and don’t miss me too much! I know I still think about all of you often and miss you lots so don’t think I have forgotten all my favorite people back home and everywhere I’ve been and connected with people! XOXO

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